Thank goodness for steroids.


They’ve bought Mau maybe two more weeks of relative comfort, after which we would expect to see a very quick decline.

Two weeks is also the amount of I have left in my current apartment.  I’ve avoided talking about my job on the internet for obvious reasons, but at this point they can’t afford to fire me.  Literally.  To fire someone you have to PAY them, and that hasn’t been happening in a timely manner for months, or at all for weeks.  We’ve been teetering at the brink of folding for awhile, and I suspect our time is almost out.  So far I’ve kept afloat but between vet bills and the lack of consistent paychecks I can’t continue.

I don’t want to wreck my credit over this, and as much as it KILLS me to give up my warm little apartment, I’m lucky to have the option of staying with my brother for awhile.

Since Mau’s health will most likely begin to plummet right around moving day …. it’s not worth the stress on him, just to gain a day or two.

Mau will not be making the move with me.    For almost nine years, virtually my entire adult life, my sense of home has been rooted around my cat.  Please tell me how I’m going to get through this, and don’t say steroids.


12 responses »

  1. i am dying a little just thinking about this for you and i don’t know how you will get through it but i know you will.

    i know.

  2. You’ll get through it this way:

    With love. Yours, Mau’s and everyone of us that will do our best to be here for you.

    Sending some from the East Coast…

  3. You don’t know me but i’ve been reading/lurking for a wee bit… Just wanted to say, from where i sit, that you are some kind of incredible. I am so terribly sorry and sad for what you are going through, and doubly so because i don’t know *how* anyone could get through it… But surrounding yourself with the people who care and love is always one good way to start, i think…

    Hang in there. (I’d hug you if it weren’t a bit weird.)

  4. Oh Veaj, there isn’t anything I can say that will take away the pain but I’ve known you long enough and have seen you go through many painful experiences and you always ALWAYS land on your feet with grace, strength, and dignity. You are an incredible lady and you always seem to take the hardships of life and turn them into something wonderous. I have no doubt that this time will be any different. I wish you didn’t have to go through this but I know that you WILL get through it. I know saying that you will always have the wonderful memories of Mau doesn’t help at all but someday I hope they will be a comfort to you. I know how much you love Mau and I’m so very glad that you have had the priviledge of experiencing that kind of love for a pet. Anyway, sometimes words don’t really help but just know that there are many people out there rooting for you and who love Mau very much. *HUGS*

  5. Veaj,
    I know how hard it can be. I know what love and comfort and joy a pet can bring. My heart is with you and I’ll tell you the truth, it’ll hurt for a while – a long while – but it fades with time and you will never, ever forget their furry little face and the love they brought you, unconditionally, for the rest of your life. He’ll always be with you – in your heart.

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